the healing

well, things are starting to heal slowly.
july is here and is half way through now.
time just passes by too quickly to ignore.
exams are near.
what should i be doing?
i failed 4 the last test and lots of things happened too.
nearly got caught doing LOTS of stuff which nearly led me to being a drop out at the age of 15 in form4. :/
well, lucky i guess.
i realised a few things bout my life.
it's somehow, filled with lies.
lies are everywhere.
and, i lie myself.
i lie to get away with stuff ALL THE TIME.
it happens almost everyday actually.
now, the guilt is sinking in me.
that just sucks.
sigh. T.T
and there's this guy that i would like to befriend.
but, one problem.
he's my best friend's ex!
i was like, omg.
what am i to do?
it's not like i'll like him okayy.
not my type.
but, i'm even scared to be friends with this guy cos i can see that my buddy still has a thing for him. :/
sigh. that's one issue.
another one is, teachers seem to just enjoy picking on me. -.-
i don't see the joy in that.
practically EVERY SINGLE TEACHER in school is after me for the TEEENY TINIEST thing.
JUST TO GET IT AT ME!
urgh. >:[
hmm. what else has happened lately?
i celebrated my first month with my honey. ;)
haha. it was sweeeeeeeet!
he made sure everything was perfect.
so cautious about it.
true enough.
no mistakes. :)
that day really made me love him even more than ever. haha. :D
it really improved our relationship in every way. :)
see how a date can change everything, peeps?
i made a mistake last time which nearly cost me.
there was a presence of another guy at the time we argued and we nearly broke up. :(
but, something inside me just told me not to.
the guilt i had in me was painful. real painful.
until i came to my senses to tell him, i was expecting a painful break up.
but, to my surprise, HE FORGAVE ME! NOT ONLY THAT, HE BLAMED HIMSELF FOR NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME WHICH LED ME TO SCOUTING AROUND!!
i was in the state of shock. i mean, who wouldn't?!
so, from then on, i learnt the true meaning of the word appreciation.
been changing my attitude ever since. :)
he's happy, i'm happpy. love.
:) <33333