the old times. :')

the old times.
wow. coming to realise, things are so different now.
compared to the times i had with loong, it's kinda different now.
i just read all the testimonials that i sent to him during our 5 month relationship.
wow. really looks like i really loved him.
honestly, i kinda miss it.
but, the time i'm having with ivan now is just as great.
i'm wishing this will last too.
i really am.
i just realised how much love can cost.
ANSWER = PRICELESS.
all the things that i did are not meant to be forgiven but he forgave me.
he sacrificed shit lots for me.
God, i gotta appreciate a guy like him.
two of my best friends told me to appreciate this guy and hold on to him with my life.
i couldn't agree more.
i let go of one deep, true love once.
i'm NOT gonna let go of this one.
this might be the last.
no way i'm seeing this fly by without putting effort into this.
it's like, all the things i did before with ivan are all pouring back.
the way we met was just so special.
i was like, his tutor. LOL.
it was real fun. :DD
the way he looked at me and the way i peeped back. LOL.
so cute. :3
it's gonna be the 3rd month soon.
my love is just growing stronger with every beat.
i can't wait to see him again. :(
i miss him so much.
his kisses are warm with so much meaning in between.
everything we do and say all comes from the heart we have for each other.
i don't want this to last a few months and end again.
i've enough of these kinda relationships.
it's time i settled down for a damn long one.
i'm ready for a long one.
i'm resisting all temptations.
as what ivan believes in,
"suffer now, enjoy later"
so, i'm willing to suffer now and enjoying later when i get to see him everyday.
i can't enjoy flirting around now and suffer when he can't take it and leaves me.
i'm NOT gonna let them happen.
my love for him is just up to this level where i trust him as much as i trust loong. :)
one thing they both have in common is that they were BOTH REAL SHY AT FIRST. XD
but, as time passed, they both opened up. :))
i will never forget these two lovers.
they really made me who i am today.
thank you, ivan and loong.
both of you will always have a place in my heart no matter what happens. <33
ivan as my loving boyfriend and loong as my best ex. :)




i love my life right now. there are so many good things going on. thank you, dear Lord for pulling me out of hell. i'm healing from everything and taking baby steps to become a better person. :)


something happened to me this year.
i gotta change it back.
something bad happened to my attitude.
come on, val.
you can do better than this! T.T
i don't wanna have anymore enemies whatsoever.
whoever enemies from other schools, let's settle this like adults kay?
apologies come first.
i'm sorry. there you go. something you wanted all along. :)


i love you guys. <33 mwahxx.
thanks to the friends who were there when i needed people behind me. :D
thanks, loves.


P.S I LOVE IVAN! YOU CAN'T STOP ME! XP